The first time.....

no more boyfriend
:(
oh well he was lame anyways

i couldnt be happier
having amazing friends
and a amazing boyfriend
:)

im 20
its weird
i feel soo old
even though im not
bleh
im moving out in like a month thats weird too
im excited at least i already know what its like to live with ashley in a way since im always at her house anyways. shit...we have started to talk like one another its funny.
yah i love the bitch ass
ahhh 20

im lonley
bleh

ummm...life is good i am way happy i couldnt have ask for a better life:)
ive been pretty busy yet still having fun. i understand more about life more than ever...shit happens, get over it! ive been hanging out with old pq homies latley and its chill we are opposites but we have fun :) i dont really hang out with that many people besides jordie and steff and ashleigh other than that fuck everyone.... it got old of havin friends that didnt really do much for me in return. but yah


ive been workin alot at the petstore and im still workin at the bar and its all pretty much awesome. im going to mexico next month so i need to bust my ass and save money. ill be going with jordanna and her mom. we are goin to be going to (places might not be spelled right) puerta la verta, mexico city, guatlahara, alcapoca, and saliah...it shall be fun! ive never been on a plane so i dont know how this is gonna go...i know im gonna freak the fuck out once im on the plane...its always been one of those worst fears....all i know though is that im gonna be loaded up on all kinds of shit so if the plane crashes i wont even know whats comming. whatever its chill. im excited its my first traveling trip...and i will be with people that know spanish and know the area. i will get to things ive never done...and its cool cuz all i really need is money for the plane and shit to buy and thats about it...so i cant complain :)

goals of mexico trip 2006-
* get wasted as fuck
* eh meet some sweet doods
* go surfing
* go kayaking
* go snorkeling
* visit pyrmids
* get more wasted as fuck
* enjoy life 100%


yah this shall be interesting i guess im going around july 8th for like 10 days woo :)


i want a boat...boats are rad..to live on a boat is even radder!
ive been hanging out at the marina a lot since steve and jordanna have a boat..its way rad...its a total different lifestyle...the sea dogs are so chill today it was funny...we were walking down the dock and theres this guy dennis whos this older man whos like a little pirate and he lives on his boat...and we are walkin passed, with his music sky high on 91x he holds up his pipe and says " mannnn lifeee is goood!" hahah hes always sooo happy! maybe its because he lives on the boat and smokes a lot of weed. ima plan to get a boat..its not that much of an expensive hobbie... boat is like 4000....slip fee is like 250 a month so you cant complain...its chill

going to tj tonight woo woo..haha not it shall be interesting

lifes weird. it still shocks me everyday. everyday i learn something new. and i love it. i love life. ive been pretty contempt...i love the friends i have...even though it might not be many. ive lost friends this year but that doesnt bother me. friends come and go. im glad im hanging out with ashley more ...shes rad.... we try to make sense of life. we have good times. i still love raquelle and steff to death.
i work way to much i just wished i can get payed more for all the shit i put up with.
people are lame that call animal control. adn their reason is because we have baby turtles...dude who gives a fuck.... they are cute as hell.
im soon to be moving out with david fuckin cook. this shall be interesting...ill probaly be stoned every fuckin day.
joy.
i bought a bong...its tight it has skulls all over its rad :)
the end

today the radio station 98.1 called the petstore and asked me for my name and told me i had a chance to win a 1000 dollars and if i heard my name said on the radio at a certain time it was a done deal. well i tuned it and didnt win. i could of used a 1000 dollars...that could of been a down payment for a car...oh well...i believe of things happening for a reason and carma and signs and all that ..but maybe it is just bullshit. i wish things would just be given to me but i know it cant be that way. i work over 40 hours a week and it seems like i gain nothing. but oh well nothing i can really do..theres no reason in quitting. i wish i was going to school and had a car but it seems like theres no hope as of now. ill just be patient and wait. me raquelle jeremy and patrick sat down at the petstore afterhours and had a discussion about us 4 gettin a place together. it seems promising..but its hard when i dont have a car to get to work 8 in the moring everyday...but i guess ill just see what happens. ive been hangin out with raquelle like everyday and she is my best friend...we have never got in a fight and i know shes there for me...i would say patrick is one of my best friends too.. im happy i have them in my life. they make me happy. them and kahuna.

yesterday this hott boy came into the petstore asking for a job. if he comes back with an application filled out im gonna talk to jimmy and tell him to hire him :)

seeing raquelle and jeremy bein in love makes me sad and jealous in a way. i envy them. i wish i had that.

snowboarding is what i just want to do everyday...i wish i can go on a trip and ride for like 5 months straight and get the fuck out of this town.

valentines day is comming up. hopefully theres someone to suprise me with something.that would be nice. im getting to old....
illl be 20 this year ..time goes by way too fast.. i question everything.


i hope to much for things..


whats the point?

this year......


me and asheigh arnt friends.
i work my ass off to get jewed over by the petstore.
my fantasy fuck said i looked like a lesbiana and that i give kids drugs..haha.
i hang out with 6th graders at work.
i have not yet enrolled in school.
ive made amends with people who hated for no apparent reason.
i realized who my real friends are.
they are the ones who say , " i told you so " haha
i taught kahuna how to shake.


the end dads home

life is good
2006

ahh sooo much has been happening...ive been really happy latley....ive been spending a lot of time with sara and jedi, cody, reese, and other fuckers... spend like everyday with sara and cody...good times...

but yah this month has been pretty relaxing...last week i went to see mxpx and agent 51 with my sister...is was weird i never hang out with my sister...but i love mxpx...and it was a lot of fun...i saw douche bag jordan there and adam...and thats it... last saturday was really fun went to a pirate party for patricks birthday...good times...me sara was sooo fuckin high cuz we justin let us smoke as much weed as we want so we were baked as fuck...me and sara were pirate hookers..hehhe...not really though but we went crazy with our costumes... this is the second day in the last two weeks i have not gone to the cliffs...usually me sara and the guys go everynight...its crazyness...im suprised no one has died yet...hahah but ya its relaxing and lots of fun...especially with people that are just too much fun to hang out with :)
theres this guy nacho or something is esco he owns a record store and hes super rad and well hes a physical thearapist and he aligned me and sarahs back for free...that shit was awesome...he knew i was in a car accident just by how my neck was out of place...my back and neck feels so much better now!
last night me and cody and sarah went to sarahs sisters 8th grade graduation and then went out to dinner at tony romas with her family..i think i got sick from the food becasue when i got home i was in the bathroom for an hour wanting to throw up...but i didnt i said fuck this im drinkin pepno bismo..so i did...so yah...im suppose to be at sarahs house but im being a damn procrastonater so yah im gonna go get ready now..peace